Is that US ?

I thought that things are going to be alright and I thought that there are a possible way to ever get that hot romance again but seems like there is nothing I can do to change your mind because you said you need some time to think about it.. That's when I feels like my whole world are falling apart .

There might seems like there will always be a sunshine through my window, as they always said , when you wake up in the morning things are gonna change but it just don't. Struggling myself to sleep last night. Feeling awkward, I have never sleep in the corner like that before, even though I had but you will always hug me in the middle of the night. I felt so alone, what else can I do to get that warm hug from you again ?

We went to Alamanda last night with barnawi and naju. Were suppose to watch movie but there are no movies available, all the movies are full. We went to pizza hut to have our dinner. It was all ok , we laugh , we jokes around. Till the time we finish our dinner, we all decided to went back home and watch movies. We did , WHITE CHICKS . funniest movies ever. Looking at ali and yaya , barnawi and naju are so closed together , you are near but yet you are far from me. I controlled myself not to cry, even though is sad but I know that is all my fault that all of these things happens to us.

After the movies, naju was so much sleepy that he have to send them both send back home. After sending them off, he came back. bringing a paper flower, didn't know where did he get it from, but my hearts are glowing..couldn't utter a words. I just can't take it anymore that I just brought him inside the room and said what I wanted to say something and explain whatever that I wanted to say for a long time since I came here.

I'm going back to my sister's place today. What is going to happen to us? I barely know. I just have to be patience and wait for your answer. Goshh this whole feeling, I really hate it. It's so much hurtful. but there is nothing I can do , I only have myself to blame.