NEW ME !!

la la la .... I'm back here again.... hahhaha .. it's been the most happiest day I ever had in my life. I finally realized what are the most important thing in life , relationship , sister-hood and family. I had a fight with Mido like weeks ago and he called me and said something he had never said to me before. Something real bad and the most hurtful words a girl can ever get from a guy. But thanks to that words , I finally woke up from that fairy tale dreamed. Our relationships went sucked because of the talking that people around can't shut their mouth and also the LIES that comes from me.

One thing is that , people talk! You can't just go everywhere and tell people to shut their mouth. The most important thing is YOU , yourself, what can you do to make them shut their mouth. Before you change the people around you, you look at yourself in the mirror and change yourself . Realize your own mistakes and your true personality when your among the others. Love can't be force once you cast a hurt on that person, you need to give them space and time for their heart to heal and re-unite. I live for a few days , I mean like weeks without a phone because my sim-card are giving problem. I need to get a new sim-card, but I don't seems to do so. It's really peaceful without hearing a phone ringing, and a text messages come through.

I just need or perhaps GROW UP. My so called besties aren't my real besties anyways, they stabbed me from behind, the only person that are really there for me all the time , is my pep-sister, BANU !! She helped me ever since the day I'm down till I almost suicide !! She brighten up my life with love, cares and support. I have learned a-lot of useful lesson these days. I have never feel so free before, have never feel so relieve before. It seems like I have re-born again, hahahha ... The name JOEY or BELLA really shows me what real life are even-though it gives myself a bad reputation. But still thanks to this names that shows what exactly the real world are out there. The safer place where I can found is my family's arm and my sister's arm.

The only person I can really trust is MYSELF. Not banu , not Mido, not anyone else but me !! I have to re-look this world with another eye, have to learn how to be strong and mature in thinking. Because when life knocks you down, you can choose whether or not to get back up. You just have to learn how to grab the golden opportunities that lies in front of you, once the chances flee away, there will never be a second chances. Finally on the Monday , I can get my feet into the college door at MULTIMEDIA COLLEGE , MALACCA. About Mido , we both need some-time to just chill and relax. He needs some-time to think and me, I need some-time to figure out our love. We are still cool and we are still see-ing each other.

Let's just threw all the past aside, open a new life book and start a new life with new adventures and new romance. What is past , is past. What are really important is the presence and the future. Grab the past as a life lesson and never repeat the same mistakes again. I want to start with a fresh , and clean BELLA . A new BELLA that everyone are proud of and people that used to talk about me can shut their mouth !! Dear Lord, lighten up my path and guide me all through this journey. I ask this through Christ our Lord , Amen!!