What's going to happen today? Ohh please, hopefully there won't be another fight between me and Mido. I swear I'm so scare, and on the other hand, I'm scare because I promised my auntie Catherine that I will go back to Damansara on the Wednesday but I did not. Mommy and Daddy, Chloe and James and my sister Siew Lee came all the way from Australia for a vacation. Ohh Godness , why did I break the promise and I bet they called me a lot of times but I just don't seems to find the guts to answer their calls. What Am I suppose to do ?? Ohhhhh !!! Arrrghhhhhh !!!
Stupid bella , dumb dumb bella !!! Arghhhhh , can't you just be a little more mature and grow up?? You are 20 and you are no longer consider a kid !! A girl like you should know what are RESPONSIBILITIES AND PROMISES suppose to mean !! Argggghhhh !!! I'm hungry at the same time, I ate a lot since last night , 2 bowls of coco-crunch , double instant noodles , 2 cups of cokes , half of the coffee and 1 redbull. hahahha I drank more than I ate :D :D ... haiiiyooooorrrr * chinese accent * this is crazyyy !!! feeling , feeling , go away !! Maybe nothing is going to happen, I think too much that's why !! Stop thinking bella !! By the way , dear bloggers , do you ever believe in fairy tale ? I mean the lovey-dovey love story like the princess and the prince charming thingy ? Ever since I'm a kid, I've dreamed of a perfect relationship and a perfect guy that fits these criteria : romantique , understanding , charming , and cute guy would appeared in my life. But I have never go through all these kind of love before, but I went through the other way. Even though there are many bitter sweet but it makes me realize a lot of things. Realationship or friendship will not last any longer if either of us not being completely honest with each other , trust , faith and hope !! Being in a relationship doesn't mean that you have to ditched your best friend nor your family. Family shall always be the first priority and then the friendship. Open your eyes widely and choose your friend wisely. Friend that are there when your having good or bad times , friends that hide no secrets between each other, friends that are always right by your side to support and want nothing back in return shall be consider as true friend and this you can call them FRIEND.
I can't do this anymore, whatever happens between me and Mido, I have to be brave and strong to walk through this journey, I can't let anyone around me down and filled with disappointment again!! Just can't and I know that deep down I have the gut to do it, just that is always that I'm a coward myself that's the reason why all the thing that are planned didn't go the way I want. I have to move forward, mommy are getting old, I don't want them to leave this earth with a disappointment. I want them to be proud to have a daughter like me!! I shouldn't have let them down !! yaaay !! will be leaving to college soon !! like real soon !! Can't wait !!
haiyooooooorr * chinese accent * enough !!! why can't this feeling go away !! you stupid dumb dumb nervous feeling !! go away nooow!!! Arghhhhh !! I'm getting crazzzy noooow !!! arrrrgggghhhh !!! mommy what should I do ??
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